Two Mothers. Two Stories.
>> May 26, 2014 –
empathy,
family,
fear,
orphans,
thankfulness
He
asked her, “Mama, do you want one of my chicken nuggets?”
She
responded, “No, honey, I have plenty of food here.”
Then,
his brother stopped at her table, put his arm around her, and said, “Mama, do
you want some of my ice cream?”
She
held his hand, “No, son, I am sharing my cone with your little sister. Thank you, though.”
Then
the birthday girl stopped over, “Mama, will you hold my toy from my Happy
Meal? I don’t want to lose it.”
She
looked into her eyes, never even glancing another way for a moment, “Yes,
sweetheart, I will hold it right here.
It will be safe with me”
It’s hard to believe that this same loving,
patient, gentle mother lived without her kids for most of last year. I watch
them now, and I actually am a little in awe sometimes at the way she mothers
her children. She never takes her eyes
of them. She participates in the adult
conversation but she is always fully aware of what each of her kids are
doing. She never has to reprimand
them. With only a nod or a shake of the
finger, they understand what she is trying to say. Only once she had to remind her daughter to
not run inside the restaurant, but even when she did that, there was no sign of
anger or impatience in her voice.
Her kids as well were nothing but angels. They were considerate and gracious…quick to
say please and thank you. They made eye
contact with me any time they asked me a question or answered something I had
asked of them. The three oldest boys
were more concerned with taking care of their youngest sister than playing
themselves. They wanted to share with
their mother even though they knew she also had food.
But, a year ago, this family was not
together. A year ago this family had
four kids in an orphanage and a mother with a young baby daughter, frantically
trying to figure out a way to earn more money so she could have her kids
back.
The family is back together. The family is still very poor but they are
together. They are happy. And, I don’t mean just kind of day to day
living happy. They are joyous…content…happy…full
of life. They know what is important,
and that is enough for them.
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Orphan care is an interesting thing. Most people look at those taking care of
orphans as saints and at the orphans as poor, helpless, starving children. Neither of these statements is true.
For my part, at least, most of the kids I care for
aren’t actually “orphans” at all. Most
of the kids I care for have at least one living parent if not both parents
still living. For many of these kids,
abuse is the main reason why they are in our care…physical, sexual, and/or emotional
abuse. This is an unfortunate statistic and
one of the hardest parts of doing what I do.
I never want my heart to get hard, so I try to stay sensitive but it
hurts oh so bad hearing some of what these beautiful babes have been
through. It’s not fair. It’s not right.
But for some of our other kids, it has just been
circumstances and poverty that have brought them to us. Their parents/grandparents/relatives could no
longer afford to care for them, so they were sent to the streets to look for
food or work and were caught by a social worker or some other government agent….and
then in turn sent to us. Sadly, too many
times, I have seen families who have grown accustomed to having their kids with
us and look to it really as more of a relief than anything. They know their kids are safe and are getting
an education and learning about Jesus, so they don’t feel any real need to try
and change their circumstances and regain custody of their children. Of course, there are others, like the mother
I was spending time with yesterday that did everything she could do to try and
get her kids back. She knew her life
would never be full without them.
Yesterday, though, she told me that some of the
teachers at her kids’ school have asked her and her children why they couldn’t
just stay at the orphanage. They tell
them that they would have had more opportunities or more “things” at the
orphanage. One of them even said, “If you had stayed, you probably could have
been adopted by some American someday and then gone to the states. That would have been way better than living
like you do now.”
Tears sting my eyes even as I write that last
statement. What?! They would have been
better adopted by some American than with their OWN MOTHER?! NO! NO! NO! I saw
them with their mother. I saw the love.
I saw the joy. I saw the laughter. NO
teacher…they would not have been better off.
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Last night my daughter was giggling to the point
of crying because one of the batteries inside a talking toy is almost dead so
it sounds like the little girl inside the toy sucked all the air out of a
helium balloon. She was giggling and
giggling to the point that I had to hold on to her stool because I thought she
would fall off. I, of course, then
started laughing because really her giggle is one of the best sounds ever. When I went to bed, I even started giggling a
little again just thinking about it. It
was one of those “I wish I could stop time right here” kinds of moments.
But, then I started thinking about that other mama…the
one who spent all of last year with her kids in an orphanage…our
orphanage. And, I thought about all the
giggles we heard and experienced with her daughter (as her daughter was my
sweet girl’s best friend), and it made me so sad.
Because here is the truth…that other mama, the one
who lost custody of her kids for a year, yeah her…well she really loves her
kids too. She loves them just as much as
I love mine. But life hasn’t been as
good to her as it has to me. And I don’t
why.
Sure, maybe she has made poor decisions in the
past. I don’t know.
Maybe she wasn’t very good with money and
squandered it. I don’t know
Maybe she was involved with bad people at some
point. I don’t know.
But, maybe…maybe, she was born into poverty just
like her kids were. Maybe she never had
a chance to go to school. Maybe she
never had parents that loved her and took care of her and taught her
things. Maybe she didn’t have
opportunities. Maybe the only reason her
kids were taken away was because life has been hard. Maybe it wasn’t her fault
at all.
I wouldn’t have wanted to miss that moment with my
daughter in my kitchen last night for anything in this world. My hubby, my kids, my family…they mean more
to me than anything on this earth. I
savor every day I get to be wife to my husband and mama to my kids.
But guess what? I also had parents that loved me.
They took care of me. They had good
jobs. We had a beautiful home. We had
food to eat. I went to school. I
graduated from college. I had opportunities. I came to Guatemala because God called me and
ultimately I also wanted to. I had
choices. And now Hubby and I get to
provide all those things for our kids. And then someday hopefully they will for
their kids.
The cycle will continue.
For so many though their cycle just includes
poverty to more poverty. But we, as a
society, judge them. We take away their
rights. We grade their parenting
skills. We continue to perpetuate the
idea that everything in America is better…that being adopted into a North American
family is always better than staying in their own poverty stricken one.
Now please don’t misunderstand me. I am FOR adoption. I love adoption. I think it is
beautiful. I thank Jesus EVERY SINGLE
DAY that I get to call my oldest, son. I
cannot imagine my life or my family without his infectious smile and joy. He is my bright, shiny star.
BUT…but…hear me say this…
Adoption is not always the answer. Helping families is. Mamas and daddies should get to experience
laughing until you cry moments with their kids.
They should not be punished for being born with nothing. This is not their fault. Why do we treat them
like it is?
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I am thankful for the privilege of working with an
organization that is committed to orphan care but also committed to restoring
families. I pray that you too wherever you
live…wherever you are…whatever you do…that you too will commit to helping
restore families and giving these families a chance to be together. TOGETHER. We cannot take ownership over kids
that are not ours and were never meant to be ours. We must fight for something better for them…YES. But, fight for that right for the WHOLE
family.
Wouldn’t
you have wanted someone to do the same for you if you had been that mama?