Because I just can't take it anymore...
First of all, I just want to say
thank you…thank you for taking the time to stop in and read this blog. I know
that there are like thousands of them out there these days vying for your time,
and I also know that nothing I am saying here is especially unique or original,
so thank you. Thank you for having even a remote interest in my little corner
of the internet.
This blog has kind of become a
dear friend to me these days. I feel a bit over stimulated with everything
happening all around me, so this blog is where I kind of digest and process it
all.
Lately, though, I haven’t really
wanted to digest at all. I have just wanted to tune it all out. It all seems so loud and obnoxious…everything
going on in the world that I just want to turn it off. Walk away.
Ignore it all.
The thing is I am sad. And mad. I am smad. (What TV show or movie is that from? Oh man that is going to bug me.)
There is so much fighting these
days. There is so much hate. There is so
much pain. I know every generation could
probably say the same thing, but really guys…don’t you see it too? Doesn’t it seem like we have reached new
heights in our wars of words. I think
the internet has made it all worse.
People can just toss things out there without having to face the repercussions
that they might have to deal with if they said those things in real life.
And do you want to know what I
think is the worst part of it all? We
Christians are a major part of the problem.
We hide behind bible verses and make excuses for our lack of a filter
with statements like “We have to defend [insert cause].” “They need to
be aware that what they are doing is a sin.” “We have to stand up for what is
right.” “Their theology is completely messed up.” “Jesus never would have
done/said that.” “They are way too liberal.” They are way too conservative.”
Blah. Blah. Blah. Blah. Blah.
Blah. Blah.
BLAH!
I am sick of it.
I am so tired of it that it is
keeping me awake at night.
I am scared for my kids and
constantly asking God to grant me wisdom as parent them and lead them. That world out there is cruel. I want my kids to not only learn how to
develop a tough skin so that they aren’t constantly hurt by it all, but I also
want them to be a light in the madness and not a participant.
So I want to drown out the chaos
and noise. I want to ignore it and pretend it isn’t there because my heart is
just aching at the way we are treating each other.
But, I know that if I turn it
off then I am going to start to be indifferent to it all.
And that to me is one of the
worst places in the world to be.
Dietrich Bonehoeffer is one of
my heroes. I devoured his biography a
couple of years ago and am ready to dive in again. I admire so many things about him. I even wrote a whole post a couple of years
ago just about him! But this is what he
had to say about the folks that try to be good people and go to church and do
their thing without really taking an interest in the needs and hurts of those
around him.
“Such people neither
steal, nor murder, nor commit adultery, but do good according to their
abilities. But…they must close their eyes and ears to the injustice around
them. Only at the cost of self-deception can they keep their private
blamelessness clean from the stains of responsible action in the world. In all
that they do, what they fail to do will not let them rest. They will either be
destroyed by this unrest, or they will become the most hypocritical of all
Pharisees.”
Sobering words.
So no I
can’t tune it all out. I am called to
action. I know sometimes action will
require me joining the picket lines so to speak. Other times it will mean holding my tongue
when all I want to do is speak out.
But how
am I to know for sure? How do I know
when to fight and when to stand down? How do I stand up to so many of the injustices
I see all around me without becoming part of the noise and chaos myself? How do
I lead my kids and teach them what it looks like to really…and I mean really
love their neighbor?
I don’t
know what those answers are for you, but this is what I have felt like the Lord
has been saying to me.
“Love me
Sara.” “Know me Sara.” “See my heart Sara.” “Walk in my steps Sara.”
Oh Jesus
that I may know you more!
You see
friends sometimes I get confused by it all.
I don’t always have all the answers.
I don’t have perfect theology. I
may not fall on the correct side politically.
I may be too conservative. I may be too liberal. I may be too quiet. I may be too loud. I may be a lot of things.
But at
the end of it all, I want people to say, “Sara loved like Jesus. She was a
light in the darkness.” I don’t want
them to say that because I am something great. I am just plain old ordinary
Sara.
But, my Jesus….He is Great.
He is so great, and I want the world to see Him and know Him and love
Him.
Maybe
then the madness will stop. And instead
of fighting we will start loving. We won’t
be face to face in battle but hand in hand in friendship. We will start striving
to change things like human trafficking and poverty and lack of clean water
instead of fighting about who is right and who is wrong.
We are in this together.
Kids are going into schools and shooting other kids. Malls are no longer safe. Movie theaters aren't safe. Our own front yards aren't safe.
We throw up our hands and cry and pray for it to be different. But, yet we adults are throwing internet stones at each other every day and degrading each other with words and trying to pass laws only meant to hurt and exclude.
We aren't any better.
We are the example of hate.
IT H AS GOT TO STOP!
I beg of you. Let's make it stop.
I am
starting by spending my time only in the Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and
John) right now. Obviously I love the entire
Word of God, but right now I just want to know Jesus better. I want to know Him
more. I want to fellowship with
Him. And the best way I can think of
doing that is to just sit with Him for a while.
Because oh baby did my Jesus know how to love. He loved. He is, was, and will always be the ultimate example of love.
Who is
with me? Let’s let Jesus’ light shine my
friends.
Love.
Love.
Love.
No more
hate.
No more
sides.
We have
to do this together.